Happy Mother's Day 2025
The Migraine Never Ends for Profound Autism Families

Rerouted

Question roadBy Cathy Jameson

I saw a video on Friday night that went viral not too long ago.  It was of a driver who slowed down then completely stopped on a major freeway.  Two lanes away from an exit ramp, the driver sat in the lane he had been traveling for what seemed like a good, long minute.  During that time, other drivers were forced to stop and wait for him to move.  Easily, he could have and should have continued on, but he made a disastrous decision.  

Instead of continuing ahead and rerouting, the driver inched his way to the right toward the exit-only lane he initially missed.  In doing that, a pretty significant multi-car accident occurred.  Where his vehicle sustained a bump, others were left crumpled in a heap surely causing delays for other drivers approaching that area.  I didn’t follow up with the story to know if the driver who stopped on that busy road was charged with any moving violations.  What I did do later was think about how simple and logical it would’ve been for that driver to just keep going straight.  

To let the GPS reroute him.

To take the next exit.

And to work his way backwards toward his destination.  

But he made a choice that will take time for others to heal from.

I’ve wanted to blaze ahead and just get done what I wanted to get done.  But something held me back. 

I’ve wanted to ignore the rules and skip through a line faster, too. But something told me not to. 

I’ve wanted to back out of a situation quickly.  But something later told me had I done that I’d have missed learning a lesson from it.  

In our little community here, we’ve learned lessons we never thought we’d have to.  And we’ve done that with each otherbecause of each other’s experiences.  Our experiences are painful, especially when we dwell on what happened to our child and their health.  And I promise you I wish what happened never did!  But had they not, would we be who we are today?

Would we be the mama bears we turned into?

Would we be the most informed parent at the IEP meetings?

Would we be the mom that others now reach out to when it comes to vaccines, special education, and managing life on the spectrum?

Probably not.  

The driver who turned right too late and left a wake of destruction in his path did it all wrong.  Some days that I did some of this parenting thing all wrong, too.  That happens when I look back on decisions made.  Those early decisions sent my son’s health back causing his growth and his development to stall.  It wasn’t the parenting journey I thought I’d be on, and it wasn’t the childhood I thought my son would have.  On our very tough days, it’s hard not to think about that.  Those days are infrequent, but when I get caught up in the emotions that can come with them, I end up in a heap, like those banged up cars left on the freeway.  

It takes effort to not concentrate on the reasons why things happened the way they did for my son, and it takes faith to keep on going on a path we’re traveling.  I’ve never parented a child like my son.  He’s never experienced what he will experience as he ages either.  But as long as I keep on the path – his path – and stay true to what I know will help him, life can go on, and it can improve.  To veer off, like that bad driver did, could have us both in a heap. I want my son to thrive, and I so want to thrive with him.  That’s why we continue one step at a time– even if just a baby step, to get us away from the past and toward a healthier future.

Cathy Jameson is a Contributing Editor for Age of Autism. 

Comments

Gayle

Cathy-thank you for another inspiring post about raising a son with autism. I also have an adult son with autism and there is no training manual for how to handle such a difficult diagnosis, and all we can do is love them and take care of them the best that we can. God Bless the amazing autism moms and dads like G. Martinez who is also raising a son now graduating from high school and about to enter an adult autism program. Good luck to him for a happy experience next year.

Gerardo Martinez

Happy mother's day to all! What an awesome post! All are lives have changed being rerouted. And so true we want our children to thrive. My son is supposed to graduate this month. Rerouted to never attend a college or university that is his profound autism. There are highs and lows. I try to focus on the highs
The lows can quickly take you into hell pretty quickly.
I find the joy in the highs. He will be going to an 18+ plus program. An although it is not college, it will be somewhere where he will be safe and welcome. He still likes school and taking the short school bus ride to school. He likes his teachers and they genuinely care for him and this brings me joy. Happy mother's day to Ms Jameson, Ms. Rossi, Ms. Hayes, Ms. Dachel and all the age of autism writers !
Blessings, G.. Martinez

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