Darkness to Light
Wishing our readers a blessed Easter and Passover.
By Cathy Jameson
Most everyone who knows me knows that I’m a prayerful person. I prayed every prayer I could think of the second Ronan reached for me one morning a few weeks ago. Even while talking to him, I kept a steady stream of prayers going in my head. Dear Lord, please help him. Ease his suffering. Keep him calm. Help me know what to do next. This is so scary. When I ran from the den to the kitchen to get the thermometer, I’d also grabbed the phone and closed the curtains. Ready to call 9-1-1 if things worsened, I kept the phone next to me as I stroked Ronan’s back in the darkened room, helping lull him into a deep sleep.
Ronan slept for a long time that day. As he slept, I continued to pray…God, if this is his time to go…please, oh…I can’t believe I’m thinking this…but please take him quickly. Take his straight to Heaven where there is no suffering but only joy.
While he slept, I never left his side. Looking so peaceful, so handsome, so perfect, I thought about everything he’d gone through. That day when he’d woken up, Ronan looked exhausted, even though he’d only been awake about for about 30 – 40 minutes. Soon after breakfast, Ronan experienced what looked like loss of vision. That happened as he became unsteady on his feet. Reaching for me, then gripping my arms right before his legs wobbled, I had to think quickly on my feet.
My confidence tanked the worse his symptoms got. What do I do? WHAT DO I DO?? I’ll catch you, buddy. Mommy’s got you…I told Ronan as he held onto me and I held onto him.
Before getting him safely to the couch, I kept my voice calm and guided Ronan. He has such trust in me, I reflected after blurting out more prayers. My prayers felt jumbled and all over the place, but I kept saying them. Asking intercessory prayers from every Saint I could think of, St. Ronan, St. Thomas, St. Catherine, St. Rose, St. Peter…all the saints in Heaven, pray for Ronan, PLEASE, I begged.
Prayers are often on repeat, especially when I feel helpless. Prayers are on repeat when really scary mornings turn into normal afternoon, too.
After Ronan slept, he had a typical afternoon. Perplexed still hours later, but also now incredibly grateful, I praised God for the blessing that the rest of the day brought to my son. He’s not experienced that kind of event since, but should he encounter other troubling problems, I hope and pray that I can be right there. I hope he’ll continue to reach out for me, and I pray that he’ll bounce back like he was able to last time.
I cry when I think about that first prayer I uttered. It’s a frightening though to see your child begin to slip into a different state; I’ll not wish for it again but will hope that he can always pull out of the darkness. Of all days to be thankful for that, today’s a perfect day to be thankful for being able to see the light again.
Cathy Jameson is a Contributing Editor for Age of Autism.
Underestimated: An Autism Miracle
BY JB Handley and Jamison Handley
In Underestimated: An Autism Miracle, Generation Rescue’s cofounder J.B. Handley and his teenage son Jamison tell the remarkable story of Jamison’s journey to find a method of communication that allowed him to show the world that he was a brilliant, wise, generous, and complex individual who had been misunderstood and underestimated by everyone in his life.
The Environmental And Genetic Causes of Autism
By James Lyons-Weiler, PhD
The Environmental and Genetic Causes of Autism delves deep into the full body of past and current research to reveal how genetic predispositions and environmental factors can combine to produce the conditions autism and autism spectrum disorders (ASD).
While most autism researchers focus on either environmental or genetic causes of autism, Lyons-Weiler’s opus demonstrates that to fully understand the condition and to finally put its rate on the decrease, it is essential to pay attention to the science showing how the two classes of factors interact.
Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-17
Thanks to Jesus for His healing touch on Ronan today.
SINACH: STAND AMAZED https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEOFjFzXGK4
Posted by: Emmaphiladelphia | April 10, 2023 at 02:02 AM
Happy Easter/Yahweh's Resurrection Day to all. I believe the son is the father God/creator himself and he became a man 2,000 years ago.
May he protect and care for Ronan, Kreed Joshua, and all the world's "safer smaller" pharmakeia victims that Neurodiversity forgot.
If you cannot afford all organic/all homegrown food please pray it won't have any of these MRNA materials in it, constantly. https://rumble.com/v2gijgg-breaking-news-your-food-is-already-infected-with-the-mrna-edible-vaccines.html
Is there any hope for Japan and its children? https://mainichi.jp/english/articles/20230408/p2g/00m/0na/014000c (Half of unmarried people under 30 in Japan do not want kids: survey)
Robots to make up for the large unemployable ASD populations? : https://mainichi.jp/english/articles/20230407/p2g/00m/0bu/008000c (Are robot waiters the future? Some restaurants think so)
Posted by: Anonymous | April 09, 2023 at 02:40 PM
I am glad Ronan returned to his baseline. We had a VNS device placed in our son, as he would continue with Seizures despite 2 medications at maximum dose. The VNS device has made a significant difference. It took one year to slowly advance the settings in the VNS device and it was well worth the journey. Just a thought for any of your readers who might be considering this.
Posted by: Carmen | April 09, 2023 at 11:29 AM
Cathy-I am so happy that all your prayers were answered and Ronan is safe and sound. I know the horrible and scary feelings these episodes with our sons can give us as my son has seizures. May God give us the strength to continue to care for our sons and live this very difficult life. May God Bless our special sons every single day. Happy Easter to you and your family.
Posted by: Gayle | April 09, 2023 at 10:04 AM
Happy Easter! He is risen!
I read your post today. Prayed for Ronan, and your entire family.
3 songs to lift your spirits today and remind you of the great God in whom we believe, and whom we serve!
“Goodness of God”
Posted by: Laura Hayes | April 09, 2023 at 09:14 AM