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If I Had a Nickel

NickelsBy Cathy Jameson 1950s-tired-exhausted_~h2867

Several times in the last two weeks I‘ve run into an expression that I have a love-hate relationship with:  “Cathy, I don’t know how you do it all.  How do you do it?”   Since it’s usually a rhetorical question, and I’m not really going to answer it, why love-hate?  Because someday I just might respond.  And it isn’t going to be pretty.

Here’s the hate version.  And, fair warning.  It includes some of the things I want to say out loud but don’t:  

How do I do it?!  Do you really want to know?  You wanna wear my shoes for a day and find out?  You wanna see what I see?  You wanna discover what others are continuously trying to cover up?  You wanna read my PMs from parents asking for advice?  Or emails from a distraught parent who finally connects their child’s deteriorating health to a vaccine injury?  You wanna hear the cry of pain that a vaccine-injured child cries when his body cannot do what his mind is telling him to do?  Or hear the frustration that comes out of a child who was physically capable of doing everything but is now both physically and mentally frozen in a developmental stage from eight years ago?!  You wanna know more about that child?  That it’s MY child who suffers more than you’ll probably ever suffer over your entire lifespan?!  No, you don’t want to know?  Come on, why not?  Am I scaring you?  Oh, I am?  Well then, please, I implore you; don’t ask me how I do it all because one of these days I am gonna unload all of this on somebody and tell them everything—the good, the bad, the awful.  And the ugly, unbelievable yet 100% God-honest truth.   

Told ya it was a little harsh. 

And now, the love version: 

How do I do it?  Oh, I’m so glad you asked!  You see, something terrible happened when Ronan was a baby.  Sure I could have done a little bit of reading which might have prevented some of his ails, but I really didn’t know enough back then.  Now that I know a thing or two, my mission is to help as many parents as I can. I want to save their children and the world!  I want tell everyone to education themselves on the explosion of environmental assaults we’ve all been exposed to.  Read, read and read some more.  It’s really pretty exciting to share what I know and what I have experienced.  It’s actually a blessing to see what I get to see.  I’m amazed at what I get to hear.  I’m truly honored to have the relationships I have now with so many other parents because we’ve learned just so much from each other.  And Ronan?   I get to see my child blossom, albeit very, very slowly.  But, I get to watch him grow as much as he is capable of growing.   

Hmmm, that version sort of reminds me of rainbows and unicorns. 

If I had a nickel for every time someone said, “How do you do it?” I’d be a rich girl.  I’d have large pots lined with all sorts of shiny nickels.  I wouldn’t let them just sit there though.  I’d add them all up and take those funds to share opportunities with others.  I’d spread the love and I’d make sure no one was on a wait list for therapy or state aide.  I’d make sure teachers were trained with our kids needs in mind.  I’d help fund respite and peaceful getaways for every exhausted parent out there.  I’d donate money to charities who gave back to families because so many are hurting financially.  I’d pile loads of money into our kids’ health and into their siblings’ education.  I’d buy out companies whose products destroy our bodies and our health.   I’d do everything I could to turn our health care system’s focus into actually caring for our health.  I’d make sure no one would ever go without ever again. Oh, to have all of that and more!

Back to reality.

It isn’t so much how I do things but why I do them—to  prevent the epidemic that is stealing our children’s health, lives and futures away.   Some days I wish the people who make that innocent yet sometimes annoying statement about how I do so much would instead remember why I do it:  because what happened to Ronan could have been prevented.  Because a generation of kids like Ronan might now forever be very dependent on their parents, their teachers, their therapists and their exhausted families.  Because if we don’t provide help for these children now, their futures could be very bleak.  Because our overcrowded school, health care and support systems will not be able to handle the growing number of children affected.  And because, this did not have to happen. 

I do a lot.  I do more than I should some days, and I do as much as I can on others hoping that it was enough.  In the long run it doesn’t matter how I do it; it's really only matter why.  I do it for Ronan because he needs me to.

Cathy Jameson is a Contributing Editor for Age of Autism.






And I myself would fund the vaccinated vs unvaccinated study...


I too would help fund that effort in a heartbeat!

Something else I'd help fund, is a team of top notch independent investigators.

First to get to the names of the all the major players who either conceived of, or who have knowingly abetted this vaccine based assault on our population

Second, once that list has been compiled, I'd have them dig up every form of dirt that exists on these scoundrels, stuff they'd that they'd probably rather die than have the world find out (... imagine the field day that one of these investigators would have digging up dirt on a moron like Brian Deer!)

Third, I would create a website called something like "The Vaccine Hall of Shame", where information on these scumbags could be posted for the entire world to see.

Sometimes, the only way to fight fire... is with fire.


Very Angry Very Hairy Man
I do like your blog name!

Very Angry Very Hairy Man

You can fund whatever study you like , it isnt going to change anything . These vaccines are a criminal conspiracy and the only way to bring down a beast as big as this one , is to protest vigourously , and in numbers .

Well we have the numbers , but they are all fully fluoridated parents who accept whatever the TV says .
It must be genetic ! Vaccines are safe , the TV says so .

Barbara Biegaj

Amen! I heard that!So well said THX!
Barbabra Biegaj in Chicago

Nikki - Dysfunctional Dose

You do it because your his Mother and that's what we do! I wonder if people ask the same thing to Mother's if the child has cancer. The one phrase that's close to making me jump on top of someone is "Oh...I would never have been able to tell there's anything wrong with her. She looks fine to me."

You think I'm fabricating or exaggerating her condition?!? As if I want to make her sound worse?? TRust me NO ONE would wish this on their child. You think she enjoys wiping crap on the walls?
Trying to prove to the world these kids need help can get very exhausting but we will NEVER stop because we are their Mother. That's just what we do :)


There aren't enough hours in the day for us to do what we need to do for our kids, for our friends kids, for our own typical kids....sometimes I wish people would just "get it" see what has happened to our kids, and not vaccinate. You'd think they learn by now- by all the kids that are vaccine injured. Its not like we have a choice to undo the things that have been done..


Great post.

Paulie's Nana

Sometimes the "someone" is a grandparent and we do it because we fiercely love this child


@ Shelly Sulkoske,

Count me in!

I would be prepared to help fund the Vaccinated vs Unvaccinated study.

Elizabeth Gillespie


I needed this too!!! It is wonderfully written. I'm sure so many of us can relate... "Because this did not need to happen" and the pain of knowing that is the worst of it all! I completely agree with Carter's Daddy "You go into robot mode so you don't die of despair"... Otherwise I don't know "how to keep doing this"...

Deborah Z. O'Leary (@REALMOMMA2155)

Cathy, I needed this today. Thank you!

Carter's Daddy

There's no "how". It is just done. It's an awful situation but it needs doing and someone has to do it. You go into robot mode to a point, so you don't die of despair, for the child's sake. "Someone" is the parent(s). Logically who else could it be?

Shelly Sulkoske

And I myself would fund the vaccinated vs unvaccinated study...

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