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Woman-thinking-2By Cathy Jameson

So, while driving around town Wednesday, I had a great brainstorming session.  I had a brilliant idea.  I actually had two brilliant ideas.  By the time I got a chance to sit down and type though, I lost my writing mojo.  I stepped away from the computer thinking I’d just come back later to type when my ideas returned. 

Later that night –nothing.

A day goes by - no ideas. 

Another day and I feared the worst – NOTHING! 

I had nothing to share! 

But then I recalled something. 

Then, I saw something. 

And, I also remembered something. 

I now have three stories to share.

First Story: a recollection


I recalled that the National Infant Immunization Week was coming up.  Is it scary that I remembered that this “event” was looming on the calendar?  It’s more like ungodly fear that I feel as I think about this campaign.  If you’ve never heard of it here’s the write up from the Center for Disease Control and Prevention website:  “National Infant Immunization Week (NIIW) is an annual observance to highlight the importance of protecting infants from vaccine-preventable diseases and celebrate the achievements of immunization programs and their partners in promoting healthy communities. Since 1994, NIIW has served as a call to action for parents, caregivers, and healthcare providers to ensure that infants are fully immunized against 14 vaccine-preventable diseases.  NIIW 2012 will be April 21-28.”

Grab!  Stab!  Wheee!  Be free!  Free of what?  A preventable disease like pertussis that isn’t so preventable with the vaccines on the CDC’s recommended schedule?  Ooooops!  

That’s okay.  The CDC still gets to pat themselves on the back this week.  The second half of their “celebration” is all about them as they “…celebrate the achievements of immunization programs and their partners in promoting healthy communities...”  Hmmmm.  Vax programs and their partners?  Partners in what, crime?  Or partners like you scratch my back, I’ll scratch yours?  Here’s how this plays out in my head:  We (the vax promoting people) will grab and stab the baby and then pawn lil Johnny off to you (the partners) when he falls ill from the vaccines we pump into him.  We’ll then send sick, distressed lil Johnny to your practice so you can write script after script after script that we endorse.  We’ll both make money here, there and everywhere!  Just don’t tell Unsuspecting Mumsy what’s really going on.  And, never tell her that the 1 in a million adverse reactions is really more like 1 in 88.

Why on God’s green earth did it become common place to take healthy infants and inject them with rounds and rounds of vaccines?   After all these years I am still trying to figure out the logical behind that practice.  It doesn’t make sense when other natural preventative practices can help boost the immune system quite nicely.  But, that’s not what the CDC is promoting. 

It’s too bad a counter idea isn’t in the works.   If we’re forced to have a National Infant Immunization Week then I want to have this proposed event the week prior:  the “National Week of Educating Before Vaccinating”.  Wouldn’t that be awesome!  And, it would fit right into the very last word of the CDC’s full name:  PREVENTION.

I envision information being shared at every doctor’s office, walk-in clinic, university hospital and medical college.  Information about preventing vaccine injury.  Topics covered would include lists of every vaccine in production, every known vaccine ingredient and complete details of every side effect.  And, every story of every vaccine-related injury and vaccine-related death as required reading.   Then, they’d all be tested on the information.  Every doctor and nurse and pharmacist who has the right to wield a vaccine would have to sign a document stating he/she is fully ready to inform every patient about every vaccine.  That document would state that each vaccinator would be held accountable for any and all reactions, too.  What a dreamy week that would be.

But, April 21-28 will see only the one-sided POWER TO PROTECT - IMMUNIZATIONS ARE TO BE CELEBRATED mantra.  That scares the heebie jeebies out of me.  A campaign to promote an “observance” of vaccines?  Observance conjures up sadness, a memory, a situation that didn’t have to happen but did.  Yep, it’s got a gloomy tone.  And, yep I’ve been known to be down in the dumps as I recall some sad memories, memories of a child who had his immunizations but experienced more harm than good done from them.  Take Ronan for instance.  Had I known what I know now….<sigh>…

“Celebrating” a week of injecting known neurotoxins that can cause serious medical issues into healthy babies?  Never.

Second Story: something I saw

CJ photoI saw a sign stating that this month, the entire month, is host to the National Child Abuse Prevention Month.  “April is National Child Abuse Prevention Month, a time to recognize that we each play a part in promoting the social and emotional well-being of children and families in communities.”

I wonder if the “Because of Vaccine Damage That Later Resulted in Autism” community is included.  I wonder that because I’m teetering on the edge thinking that some of the medical “practices” and subsequent necessary special educational “supports” constitute as some form of abuse.  

I’m all for promoting good stuff for kids and their families, and think this month-long prevention campaign is a worthy event.  I do believe some good will come from this effort.  But, the now ever-cynic in me quickly put me and my kid in the situation:  what about the terrible damage done to kids in the exam room?  Like when the doctor insisted upon vaccinating lil Johnny while he had a double ear infection?  Doc said it would be okay.  Vaccinate.  Do it now. Today.  No worries.  His thought process:  It’ll save Unsuspecting Mumsy a trip to do them now.  But Mumsy’s wised up a bit.  She reminds the doc that lil Johnny is on antibiotics - shouldn’t he be completely healthy for his shots?  Wait again she timidly speaks.  You just gave me a sample of Tylenol that I’m supposed to  give sick, feverish, immunocompromised lil Johnny after plunging  multiple vaccines into him?  And I also have to make him chug antibiotics for the next ten days?  Really?   Lil Johnny’s weeping, full of gross, gren boogies, looking sadder than sad while Mumsy is being told to trust the lab-coated human who might get some kickbacks from lil Johnny’s visit visit.  She wavers on what her “Mommy gut” is telling her - to run far, far away. 

The above scenario?  True story.  The outcome?  A seriously sick child who regressed and who later catapulted onto the autism spectrum.   Preventable? Sure was.  Abuse?  I’d have to say some form of medical maltreatment. 

So, instead of promoting just “the social and emotional well-being of children and families” I’d like to promote something even better.   Social and emotional well-being sounds nice, and really reminds me of when we were a typical family before Ronan got sick, but what for the autism community?  With the numbers being at 1 in 88, more children are in jeopardy of being abused.  How so?  Quite easily:  by understaffed or inadequately trained providers who work with huge waves of children spilling into their classrooms, that’s how! 

1 in 88 potential abuse cases. 

I in 88 neglected in some form or fashion. 

1 in 88 socially cast aside by peers. 

1 in 88 whose well-being has been taken advantage of. 

(Please do remember that those 1 in 88 stats are old despite their March 2012 debut.) 

Children and their families in the autism community can potentially be victim of neglect and mistreatment at an even more alarming rate.  Some immediately fall out of their formerly typical communities when lil Johnny’s behavior issues increase.  They’ll start to fall out of other communities when they are emotionally kicked out of their own extended families because they don’t “get why lil Johnny keeps banging his head on the floor” asking, “Can’t you just spank him?”  A safe community needs to be provided stat! 

Who will scrape these people off the floor while they crumble at the thought of their child’s future?  Who will take them in?  Who will rebuild the social and emotional mess that causes quite a toll physically and psychologically for these families on the spectrum?  It would be so costly to right some of these wrongs.  Funding will obviously be needed to keep children safe and families intact.  Oh, and also to keep what’s left of the rest of the healthy kids off the spectrum. 

But, where, oh where can we get the means to do all of that?  Think.  Think.  Think. 

Hey!  Here’s an idea.  Why don’t we postpone that national infant immunization “one-size-fits-all” herd immunity campaign, re-appropriate those funds to holistic pediatricians who believe in educating parents on all vaccination fronts, figure out how to prevent child restraint and abuse in the classrooms and siphon the rest of the money directly to the families who are at the end of their financial rope because of their child’s vaccine-induce autism. 

Can we?

Third Story:  a memory

So, now for some good news.   Sort of.  Week

Years and years and years ago I worked in the education field.  I loved being a teacher.  My classroom was my office and my students were my co-workers.  I lived, breathed and even dreamed about my career.  One year, when I was not just a teacher but also Director of a preschool I had the honor of bringing the school to a National Accreditation status with the NAEYC.  http://www.naeyc.org/woyc   It was hard work, but it was so rewarding to provide top-notch educational opportunities for my students and their families. 

What does any of this have to do with my third story?   Well, as I dropped Ronan off to his special education classroom this week we passed a preschool along the way.  On the gate was a sign about celebrating “The Week of the Young Child™ which is an annual celebration sponsored by the National Association for the Education of Young Children (NAEYC). The purpose of the Week of the Young Child™ is to focus public attention on the needs of young children and their families and to recognize the early childhood programs and services that meet those needs. The 2012 Week of the Young Child™ is April 22–28 and the theme is Early Years Are Learning Years®.”  Yes those early years are!

I remembered what an honor and a privilege it was to work alongside the staff of the NAEYC.  I learned a great deal about providing a quality program for families and also gained important professional skills as the Director.  Our preschool received the highest accreditation, and life was good. 

A few years later I had I had the chance to attempt another National Accreditation with the NAEYC but this time at a different school.  Knowing the ins and outs of the procedure I dove right into the project.  The hardest part of the initial stage in the process was the filing.  Oh, the paperwork!  It had to be perfect.  Impeccable.  Or the accreditation process could be cancelled even before a physical inspection of the school would be scheduled. 

I had lists upon list to check and double check.  I triple and quadruple checked everything and made sure my staff knew I was not usually this neurotic.  The honor of accreditation was worthy of the great pains and massive effort we all had to bear. 

While getting the NAEYC filing I made sure to have all of my other files in tip top shape.  Might as well make sure everything was where it was supposed to be.  I was on an organizing spree. Since it had been awhile since I had looked at the students’ health and shot records I started there first.  I made a list of students and one by one checked off that we had the school physical and an accompany vaccine record.  Easy day.  Starting at the top of the list I check for each form.  Check? Match.  Check?  Match. Check?  But wait.  What’s this? Oh, yeah.  That Kid’s shot record. 

That Kid’s shot record was one I’d never seen before .  It was blank.  Hellooooo, Misguided Mom???  Didn’t she know those boxes were to be filled in?  Who does she think she is?  It gets better.  Clipped to the empty shot record was a greeting card.  It had a picture of the Earth with some celestial mumbo jumbo intertwined around it.  In the card, Misguided Mom had written something to the effect:  “My child will not get the vaccines recommended because I believe the Universe and Divine Nature will protect him and his health….yadda yadda yadda.”  Hold on.  Bwahahahahaha! 

Fast forward 15 years.  I wish I had as much sense now as what (now referred to as ) Organic Mom did then. 

Organic Mom was in the clear.  Our state honored vaccine exemptions.  After consulting with my boss about That Kid’s shot record I found out Holistic Mom’s handwritten note was documentation enough for That Kid to stay enrolled.

Man, I wish I could have asked her a question or two about why she thought vaccines were for crap.  I totally judged her though.  I thought she was a foolish fool.  I couldn’t wrap my head around how the Universe and Divine Nature would protect her kid.   I didn’t ask.  I just shook my head and continued to file paperwork.  

Things got ugly when That Kid came down with chicken pox a few weeks into the school year.  Even with a vax exemption status That Kid had to obviously stay home until his pox cleared up.  BUT, in order to return to school Organic Mom had to take That Kid to the doctor.  Doctor was required to sign off that That Kid was symptom-free and not contagious.  Sound reasonable?  I thought so.  Plus, I didn’t make these rules.  I was just relaying the info my boss told me.  Hey, Organic Mom!  Because of the exemption.  Remember?  You chose not to vax.  We now need Big Brother’s documentation.  That Kid can’t come back into the school without it.   Sorry.

Organic Mom was now Irate Mom because a doctor’s visit cost her time off work and a co-pay.  My hands were tied. There were procedures to follow.  I was getting dumped on because of some extra step that she voluntarily chose.  Hey! Don’t yell at me. I just file the papers here.  Go.  Take him to the doc’s office.  Make sure he’s free of his goo and then bring him back. 

Man, I was so judgmental.  And stupid.  But, I had no need for vaccine information back then beyond filing office paperwork. 

But wait, why is this my third story? 


I remembered all of this when I saw the sign for The Week of the Young Child while driving past the preschool Thursday morning.  Seeing the sign triggered the National Accredidation memory.  The National Accreditation memory triggered a thought that <gasp> I did know something about vaccines and exemptions well before Ronan was born.  

Yes.  A flood of memories.  They came rushing.  Fifteen years ago I was introduced to vaccine exemptions.  I had no idea, NO idea how much I would be surrounded by talk of vaccines today.  I also didn’t think that I would start so many conversations with other people, “If I’d only known then what I do know now … <sigh>…” 

How funny the world works.

Now that I know what I know….. I’m not afraid to share an opinion or two or… three. 

Cathy Jameson is a Contributing Editor for Age of Autism.



Benedetta and Jeannette,

I came across this very enlightening presentation by Mike Adams, the Health Ranger. I think it basically confirms my worst fears about Pharma...please watch.

Big Pharma's Secret Global Eugenics Agenda



Pertussis or diphtheria are benign diseases now, easy to treat with antibiotics. France, Germany never even bother to count thousands of their pediatric pertussis cases, like nobody counts cases of cold. It is worth going once through pertussis and then have immunity for life. Vaccinations give immunity for 3 years at best, it means they are rather worthless. Furthermore, pregnant mothers who were immunized naturally through a disease, transfer their antibodies to their infants. In contrast, vaccinated mothers do not transfer such antibodies, as their immunity is transient (if any).

Jeannette Bishop


It's also hard for me not to suspect some of those controlling these programs. People who believe the world would be better off without the vast majority of us here may just not be in too much of a hurry to prevent life-shortening and fertility-reducing problems, except those that may affect everyone like atmospheric Hg levels or outbreaks of infectious disease, but it seems like they are working very hard to keep certain exposures in the population in one form or another despite increasing evidence that the cost of change can't be more than the cost of continuing.

In the NSSM 200 people like Henry Kissinger proposed global population control policies for "national security and overseas interests," not exactly an altruistic agenda.

Long link to a rather long PDF file:


This is the part I remembered most:
"High infant and child mortality rates, evident in many developing countries, lead parents to be concerned about the number of their children who are likely to survive. Parents may over compensate for possible child losses by having additional children."

I don't know about the truth of that claim or if those who penned/dictated it really believed it, but I think ironically, part of what is driving global efforts to save children's lives through vaccination is the belief that will also encourage smaller family size. Maybe that's the reason Bill Gates mentioned vaccine uptake and population reduction in the same breath? But with recent research showing that DPT vaccine increased infant mortality in developing countries or the higher mortality rates in countries using the highest number of vaccines change any policies?


On the 1st June we (Aussies) officially start Winter and already the newspapers are reporting on the Fluvax.


In 2010- 1000's were hospitalised and symptoms were linked to the Fluvax.


When will everybody learn?!

Elizabeth Gillespie


A week to "celebrate" infant immunizations, nation-wide? Really? Because the US has the highest number of mandated pediatric vaccines, and starts the day infant is born, no wait, they start in utero!

What else are they celebrating?

How about National High Infant Mortality Week?

And National World's Highest Autism Rate Week?

Heidi N

Well I had absolutely no clue. I was told that one in a million kids get serious reactions due to having an allergy and that was it. I figured since kids in my family never need an Epi-pen, then we would be in the clear. If only I had an inkling, any inkling at all, even the slightest of all slightest inklings, I actually would have looked into things. On a good note, the information I have learned about politics, herbs, nutrition, health care, business, etc. is amazing, and I am sure I will use it to a great advantage until the day I die.


It would appear so.
Since it was such a big problem in the 70s - made it to a congressional hearing - then the 1986 ruling to have tax payers pay for injuried children because vaccine manufactures could not afford it- because they planned on damaging a lot.

After that law in 1986 came the 90s -- only four years later --- and more vaccines, and more boosters, and additional mumps put in the MMR.

But then they could just be that ignorant??? It would take a lot of ignorance to see problems and only esculated it. Tin foil hats is not for you here - but the NIH, CDC what are they thinking????

All the Evil that every came into this world started with someone thinking they were smarter/more educated, better trained, genetical superior to everybody -or most other poeple -


All the culling the population talk on the internet and now 1 in 88 kids dxed with autism many of whom may never marry or reproduce..Is anyone else starting to think there may be a grain of truth to these conspiracy theories? Conspiracies do happen afterall look at 9-11. I know I'm venturing into "tin foil hat" territory" but there's just too much weirdness going on these days. You can feel it

Bob Moffitt

@ pass the popcorn

You are absolutely correct .. I meant to say "higher" .. thanks

Jeannette Bishop

I don't think I even have the excuse that I had faith in the complete goodness of the vaccine program and those running it, though I never thought they would have propped-up such an experimental program with such adverse outcomes.

Several buried memories of hints of vaccine problems came up when I made the painful connection with my daughter's injuries. I went against strong internal warnings also when vaccinating her, and even, or probably because of that, suppressed that memory. A memory of my grandmother telling of her teenage son developing type 1 diabetes on the heels of a vaccine, a memory of another grandmother mentioning how she had never felt the same after a vaccine, a memory of a "news" feature where I had the subtle impression B. L. Fisher's interview was edited unfairly, a handful of other impressions, all these were suppressed, leaving only a vague concern about vaccine injury. I think I was so afraid to make waves, I didn't want to remember anything that suggested I needed to be questioning.

Maybe I can console myself, if anger inducing thoughts can be considered consoling, that I did not really have access to all I could have known to protect my daughter due to a systematic suppression of such knowledge. I do take consolation in how such ignorance is much less likely today, thanks to many like yourself, honest, courageous in speaking out.

cia parker

And don't forget that it's one in 88 of those born in 2000, it's apparently one in 50 in the younger cohorts. And one in nine vaxed kids have asthma, one in 10 ADHD, one in 6 a learning disability, the last two completely unknown syndromes fifty years ago, one in 450 diabetes. Kids permanently damaged by vaccines are soon going to be in the majority.


"is there a doc in the house"..today's science is "out of my realm of understanding"...I've tried..and I really want answers. I understand little about de novo dna. I can approach it in a very elementary level...as though it's a miss, like an untyped character, or likens to that filled in circle on a test being one off, I get that the mutation can cause the process to be upset, not to follow the pattern meant by the original message before the mutation. I "think" I get that. This mutant affect seems to likely be a "hit" by a mutagen, that follows as abc, but if that's the case why is it referred to most often as happening in utero? Certainly there are evil mutagens lurking after birth as well. Is someone trying to make us believe we are a "finished unchangeable product at birth"? So how is it , can a perfect dynamic of development be switched as a track for the train, to lead down a completely different path due to one simple miss in a line of otherwise perfect dna? And most importantly are we injecting our kids with the mutagens necessary to form these de novo errors? I don't believe for a second that autism is genetic in the sense of inherited weaknesses, no, but I do believe it's genetic in the sense of damaged genes occurring within a short time after some vaccines.

pass the popcorn


You meant "higher" on the infant mortality rate - where you said lower, right?

"Why the heck is the infant mortality rate in the US lower than every country that vaccinates less?"

(Otherwise excellent comment as always.)


Thanks for these memories. The whole vaccine mandate culture is soooo scary. It looks like parents can escape up to school but then wham it gets really complicated. I was once in school to become a "reading specialist" and I took a special education class. This brilliant woman professor talked about "these kids" that special educator were beginning to see. They didn't respond to stimulants, they were clumsy, they lacked handedness...but she said that they can learn but the real determinant is SES (socio-economic status). This was in the late 80s after the MMR and I wondered if this was the beginning of the autism wave--"these kids" turned out to be those below the radar. If they were lucky their parents could pour on the tutors, and the extras for many many years and they might get through. But today in this climate of vaccine mandates they would never have made it because just around the corner is another vaccine that would have surely sunk them--and in those years the mandates were not as militant. Today a parent has to be very informated and ready to fight and fight and fight. Every school year is another fight. The doctors and schools are adversaries. The media is compliant, and the government pushes product. The justice system has locked its doors and thrown away the key.


It will be like an old "newsreel" moment in history, when students will watch the line up of kids for vaccines and the collateral damage the next year when they see videos of spinning ,flapping toddlers that can't answer to their own names. Hands will be up, "didn't they know this could happen?". yes, everyone had the right information yet the atmosphere was set to confuse then bully, where professionals we thought we could trust became pawns ,accepting false data as their truth.

Christine Thompson


I appreciate your unique perspective on vaccines as both an educator and parent. We all feel the crushing weight of "should have, would have, could have." Judgmental and stupid? No, just too hard on yourself. Try to keep in mind that while the CDC/AMA/NIH/WHO and the BFD are frantically smearing our community of concerned parents and health providers as fear mongers, the credit truly goes to them. They have been masterful.

My family has moved around quite a bit due the "financial rewards" of autism. Keeping up-to-date/complete records for my children has been challenging... all of those IEPs and behavioral intervention plans. One thing my husband and I have been militant about is making sure Max and Kathryn's vaccination records take priority. You can have a few missing records but not missing or incomplete vaccines.

Imagine my horror when, after 3 years in the Wake County Public School System, my daughter's vaccines appeared to not be current. My kids? No way. As I said to her educators, "I know Kathryn is current on her vaccines. I mean, if she wasn't she wouldn't be Autistic, right?" Needless to say my inappropriate humor was not received well. Luckily for me, her records were cleared up & the school didn't subject me to a social worker house call. The bad part is that I was outed as one of those "vaccine moms." My further refusal on the voluntary (at this point) Gardisil jab has sealed my fate.

I wish vaccines weren't a litmus test for our fitness as parents.

Bob Moffitt

Thanks for reminding us .. "Since 1994, NIIW has served as a call to action for parents, caregivers, and healthcare providers to ensure that infants are fully immunized against 14 vaccine-preventable diseases. NIIW 2012 will be April 21-28.”

We should also be reminded the Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System (VAERS) proudly boasts on their web-site:

"More than 10 million vaccines per year are given to children less than 1 year old, usually between 2 and 6 months of age. At this age, infants are at greatest risk for certain medical adverse events, including high fevers, seizures, and sudden infant death syndrome (SIDS). Some infants will experience these medical events shortly after a vaccination by coincidence".

Unfortunately, I can't seem to find any evidence that a child born in the United States has a better chance of surviving the first year of life .. than a child born in other countries who received less than half the number of vaccines?

Consider .. the United States, arguably the wealthiest, most technologically advanced nation in history .. has a dismal infant mortality rate .. where 6.33 per 1000 "live" births die before their first birthday. Do the math yourself and I think you will agree this is a stunning number of the 4 to 5 million children born each year in the United States .. who will die before their first birthday.

One would think the US .. with the most aggressive vaccination policies in the world .. would have the best infant mortality rate .. or .. at the very least rank among the top ten countries in the developed world?

Why the heck is the infant mortality rate in the US lower than every country that vaccinates less? It is a pure mystery to me .. but .. let's not let that mystery spoil the celebration of National Infant Immunization Week.

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