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When I Can Do Nothing

Nothing-black By Kent Heckenlively, Esq.

I've been very busy lately.

Unfortunately, I can't talk much about it.  What I can say is that on some level, my prayers to God for an understanding of the autism epidemic have been answered.  I now know why they fear us so much.  I can't prove it, and as a lawyer I understand that's the real show.  But I know.

And yet, as thankful as I am for an understanding of what has happened to my child and so many others, my heart is heavy.  The Dark Forces which in the past have destroyed the careers of those who have found clues to the afflictions of our children and other disease communities are once again on the move.  You may very well read about their actions this week.  And I can't do anything to stop them.

I recently watched the mini-series The Stand, based on the book of the same name by Stephen King.  The book has long been one of my favorites.  It starts like a science fiction movie, with a deadly virus escaping from a government lab, and killing most of humanity.  But then it changes.  The survivors start having dreams.  Some dream of Mother Abigail, a 106 year-old black woman who lives in Hemmingford Home, Nebraska.  Mother Abigail urges those who dream of her to meet in Boulder. Colorado.  Others dream of Randall Flagg, who tells them to meet him in Las Vegas, Nevada.

As the inevitable showdown between the good people of Boulder and the evil people of Las Vegas looms, something quite remarkable takes place.  Instead of a great battle between the two sides, Mother Abigail has a vision that five members of the Boulder community must make their way to Las Vegas where they will make their "Stand" against Randall Flagg.  They will deliver themselves into the hands of the enemy.

Flagg is clearly a demonic force, but he doesn't have quite the hold over people he thinks he does.  His followers keep deserting him, especially in light of the five who have chosen to make their "Stand" against him.  They carry no weapons.  It's simply the power of the faith they bring to that unholy place which defeats Flagg.  Evil falls apart in the face of such humble courage.

I often find myself pondering such questions of faith.  What is it I'm meant to do?  I want to rush the barricades, but to what effect?  It was with such thoughts in my mind I went to our local bookstore, picked up a Bible, opened it to a random page, and with my eyes closed, put my finger down.

This was the passage my finger landed on.

Psalm 94 - God, the Avenger of the Righteous

O'Lord, you God of vengeance, you God of vengeance, shine forth!  Rise up, O judge of the earth; give to the proud what they deserve!  O' Lord, how long shall the wicked exult?

They pour out their arrogant words; all the evildoers boast.  They crush your people, O'Lord, and afflict your heritage.  They kill the widow and the stranger, they murder the orphan, and they say, "The Lord does not see; the God of Jacob does not perceive.

Understand, O dullest of the people; fools, when will you be wise?  He who planted the ear, does he not hear?  He who formed the eye, does he not see?  He who disciplines the nations, he who teaches knowledge to humankind, does he not chastise?  The Lord knows our thoughts, that they are but an empty breath.

Happy are those whom you discipline, O Lord, and whom you teach out of your law, giving them respite from days of trouble, until a pit is dug for the wicked.  For the Lord will not forsake his people; he will not abandon his heritage; for justice will return to the righteous, and all the upright in heart will follow it.

Who rises up for me against the wicked?  Who stands up for me against evildoers?  If the Lord had not been my help, my soul would soon have lived in the land of silence.  When I thought, "My foot is slipping," your steadfast love, O Lord, held me up.  When the cares of my heart are many, your consolations cheer my soul.

 Can wicked rulers be allied with you, those who contrive mischief by statute?  They band together against the righteous, and condemn the innocent to death.

But the Lord has become my stronghold, and my God the rock of my refuge.  He will repay them for their iniquity and wipe them out for their wickedness; the Lord God will wipe them out.

Now I'm not anybody's idea of a saint, but they say even if you're just bitching at God, that means you're still a believer.  By that measure God and I are still in the game.

I'm not much on telling people what to do.  Generally I prefer to persuade.  But if you're in good with the Lord, bitching with Him, or haven't put in a call lately I think this might be the perfect time to send up a flare.  You might even think about reciting psalm 94.

God knows there are some wicked people out there trying to keep our children from getting better.  If you're listening God, and it meets with Your approval, this week would be an excellent time to deal with them.

Kent Heckenlively is Contributing Editor to Age of Autism





I believe I know what you are talking about Kent & if I am right, I support you.

I have learnt that cancer, allergies, auto-immune diseases, autism, ADHD, ADD, SIDS, asthma, eczema, diabetes, Alzheimer's, HIV, Gulf War Syndrome, MS, ME, Arthritis, Down's Syndrome & many, many others are linked to vaccines.

There is an unannounced war being waged against us, our families, friends, children, neighbours, colleagues.

It is not an accident. It is not the result of corporations seeking profit at the expense of safety.

It is deliberate genocide by a small number of very powerful people that control our governments, media, pharma, & have corrupted science with lies.

It is a conspiracy so horrendous, most people cannot even allow themselves to imagine it.

The evidence is there if you can suspend your disbelief long enough to research it.

Medicine is being used as a deliberate bioweapon against an unwitting population as effective treatments & healers are being attacked, smeared & removed.

Until we are able to recognise the true intentions & methods of those behind this vile campaign, & have the courage to call them out, our people will continue to be maimed & killed.

Some of you will think I'm crazy, some will know what I'm talking about.

A couple of years ago I would have thought I was crazy!

I was a nurse for 20 years & for the last 6 years I was responsible for vaccinations & blood borne virus testing.

I will never give or receive another vaccine in my life. In fact, I will never seek allopathic treatment of any kind ever again.

Please watch Lethal Injection: The Story Of Vaccination

Bob Wheeler

Here is one man's proof - Dr Blaylock: Vaccines and Autism

Alexander Talon

Those are strong words. Would you really call for the destruction of those who disagree with you? If you have this new proof, won't that settle it? Why use such threatening quotes? It makes it sound like you are the one who is scared.

If you have all the proof, that should be all you need. Love them for they are different. Do not hate for they are only doing what they feel to be right, just as you are.

The truth (whatever that may be) will win in the end.

Media Scholar

The man who was going to do some harm has pulled back.
Does this mean it's safe to stand near front windows?

Is this man bigger than a bread box?


I love a good sermon.

Dan E. Burns -

See you in Tahir Square.


Ok, So, Your Prayers ae being Answered, in Real Time :0) Find Me on Facebook, patricia elaine chandler and my Empire I am Building For Us, for a New Day, the New Way.... National Autism Foundation... I am a builder of 1, for now, because all it takes is just 1, to start.... I worked in the Life Science industry from 1985-2008, in Clinical Trials R&D, in every therapeutic area and I can't get back In .... OK Lol ... I have Extremely High Functioning Autism, keen, extra-sensory-perception, and the last Company I worked for, a Tech Solutions Firm in NJ, (an Indian-based company with "World-Headquarters Here in the US because that's How Outsourcing is Done, today) and placed onsite with a "Research Firm in NJ. My 2 year contract endedin 10 weeks when the final upper mgmt decision came down and No/Go.... then, as if yo scae me away for good, forwver, the Sr. Director of the CDM dept. Chris Mc called Me a Guinea Pig to my Face! I have stories from 47.5 years, though I call my 2nd Birth, 40 long years of tragic events and inhumane pain and suffering that only signifies a miracle because I simply should not be here... I Am. I was Born to be Caled to Today! I was born, premature, and Autistic, non-verbal from birth until age 7! Find me on my facebook... I have dyslexia though I was the fastest keyer in DE. I have an IQ of 139-169, by Their Standards.... which do not matter because we areAll Born with teh Same Level of Intelligence. Once we start navigating the Spectrum of Life, it's all the roll of the Dice or Dye.. Color??? What Color??? Watch the Wizard of Oz, black and white and then in Color, and then read my Note on Facebook, "There IS No Box" and then read the others, at your leisure and then, Let's Talk! And, if this is You, just "checking in" to See How Im Doin'???? I'm Doing Just Fine :0) ..... God Don't Make No Mistakes... People Do.... All the Time and People Do NOT Change. LAWS Change People! Amen! Namaste .... I was Baptized 3 Times. and when I starting speaking, God was the 1st in My Life and Always Will Be.


Then Kent we need to all unite, the autism community together with all the other groups of patients affected by this beast. We need to unite to defeat those who created it and are protecting it, who by now have likely corrupted most of the institutions supposed to protect us and have tentacles all over.

Kent Heckenlively

Dear Readers:

Please know I will post as soon as I can. I'm thankful for those of you who have offered your prayers. Let me say that those of us who feel we are isolated in our autism bubble will soon find out that we are linked to many other disease communities who have been ignored and dismissed by the mainstream medical community.

All the best,
Kent Heckenlively

Kim Davis

I tried to post last night...This doesn't happen often, but God was calling me last night, to read something spiritual on the computer. I didn't expect to see it here. I'm praying.


"So, Kent, you have my attention. Please don't leave me in suspense. What is it you know but cannot prove? Why do they fear us so much?"

Yeah...come on Kent; email us or lay it out here. Silence is no good. Safer if message is out in the open.

To Rhonda

Having autism, poor health, poor immune system in if own self if a roller coaster ride --- let alone all this other stuff that goes along with it.

Make sure you don't make yourself sick on this roller coaster with worry, but since you turned all your problems over to God, it seems, as always, you are on the right track there as well.

Dan E. Burns -

So, Kent, you have my attention. Please don't leave me in suspense. What is it you know but cannot prove? Why do they fear us so much?


Well, that's good news to hear, Kent, good news to hear. And yes, absolutely PRAYER DOES, work! Prayers are always heard and answered, just not always in the way we might expect.

Kent Heckenlively

Dear Readers:

I belive the power of prayer has worked. The man who was going to do some harm has pulled back. We are safe for now.


Jenny Allan

"All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing." (Edmund Burke)

You are NOT doing nothing, but those 'good men' in positions of power and influence are all standing by or looking the other way whilst corruption and evil flourishes.

Jim Thompson


Thank you for your contribution of time and treasure to the readers of AoA.

Here is a piece on Huffpost that shows how the revolving door allows Pharma hired guns to infiltrate the branch of government in our country that proposes and passes pro Pharma laws.

“The reverse revolving door poster child would have to be Howard Cohen, formerly of HC Associates Inc., who is now chief health counsel of the House Energy and Commerce Committee. The Hill reported:
While working at his firm last year, Cohen earned more than $1 million lobbying for clients including Amgen, the Federation of American Hospitals and the Pharmaceutical Research and Manufacturers of America, according to his financial disclosure form. Now in Congress, Cohen has an annual salary of $168,000, according to House records.”

See Huffpost at

The fisherman’s motto “Pray and Row” is apt here. Thank you for reminding us that both are required.

Heidi N

Love it!!!!! I think we Christians need to remember faith is very powerful. We need to remember that Jesus will get us through!


I just wanna hear Rupert Murdoch/Brian Deer quote WILLIE:

"Vaccines Cause Autism."

Trevor de Koekkoek

Great post. Not only ringing true about the wicked and our stand, but also about where I stand with my faith. I think I fit in somewhere in between bitching and not having made a call. I do feel somewhere my faith has a lot to do with fighting for our health freedoms and against the evils that are trying to restrict them and keep us from the truth.


I have thought about our difficult fight (and the evil that seems to just permeate this whole topic) and I have actually done so while reading the exact Psalm you quoted. I was reading it and my mind went straight to these enemies which I feel are those who would allow innocent children to be hurt every single day.

Donna K




I applaud you your wonderful piece, above. But can you tell us at all as to what you're referring to? Would this involve info. regarding XMRV? Is there anything any of us can do, to help? Hopefully, you can share some of what you may know.

It has been stated by various physicians and/or scientists that vaccines are quite literally changing the human genome. Having said that, I wholeheartedly agree with John's post, above.

I also agree with Dr. David Ayoub's statements in past lectures (and I'm paraphrasing, here), that the science IS IN and has been, for quite some time. The PTBs KNOW that vaccines are harming and have caused untold damage to many. I honestly feel that research regarding the vaccinated vs. unvaccinated will NOT result in any meaningful vaccine policy change by the powers that be in the United States.

The PTBs will undoubtedly endeavor to cover up the results of that type study, just as they've done so well with the plethora of studies which have already performed which clearly show the damage vaccines can cause to the human (and animal) immune systems. Studies I may add, printed in various medical journals, but journals most pediatricians never bother to pick up to read and thus, ignore. Pediatricians DO NOT RESEARCH, the research! They are conditioned to accept the research results they are TOLD TO BELIEVE.

Paid ghostwriters write their assays as to vaccine statistics in various medical journals - this is a fact. This has been admitted to, by whistle-blowers of former Big Pharma medical groups (such as John Virapen). There is a conditioned herd mentality within all those connected, and in bed with, Big Pharma. And it is not going to be taken down easily.

Big Pharma (and all its conglomerates) is an extremely well oiled machine. Thus far, all the efforts of the many Davids out there have not been able to throw enough slingshots to take this behemoth of a Giant, down.

Given that, parents need to WAKE UP. All we can do, both as individuals and collectively, is reach out to as many others as we can, and provide them with as much credible information as to what we've come to learn.

We cannot parent every child; we cannot save, every child. But hopefully, IF enough parents wake up and really listen to the cries of alarm of so many, it may be enough to stop this monstrous Goliath in its tracks.

Hope - Mom of Triple Divas

AMEN - Prayer Warriors Let's Go!


You can put me well beyond the "haven't put in a call lately" category, but I followed your lead and dug out the Bible from the shelf, closed my eyes and flipped it open for maybe the third time in its long lonely life. It landed on Isaiah 61, The Good News of Deliverance:
"He has chosen me and sent me to bring news to the poor, to heal the broken-hearted, to announce release to captives and freedom to those in prison. He has sent me to proclaim that the time has come when the Lord will save his people and defeat their enemies. He has sent me to comfort all who mourn, to give to those whom mourn in Zion joy and gladness instead of grief, a song of praise instead of sorrow. They will be like trees that the Lord himself has planted. They will all do what is right, and God will be praised for what he has done. They will rebuild cities that have long been in ruins."


Bless you Ken! I have so longed to see our community band together in prayer. I have always been a believer but it's been through the experience of my daughters regression and recovery (along with other recent life events) that I have finally gotten my spiritual act together. God has shown himself in my journey, not in subtle ways but in "beat me over the head with a stick" sort of ways. It started in very powerfully when my daughters regression began. I yelled at God, "HELL NO...NOT MY DAUGHTER...I'M NOT LIVING WITH THIS...SHOW ME WHAT"S WRONG WITH HER AND HOW TO FIX IT!" And boy did he. The stories I could tell. And it is my continuing prayer that he do the same for every other family who is working their butts off and draining their savings accounts to recover their children.

Every time I get really DISCOURAGED over this crime that is being inflicted on America's children, God leads me to a Psalm. There are quite a few in the vain you've quoted here. I take them as more the comfort from God...I take those Psalms as a promise from him.

I think God understands when we "bitch" at him on occasion...and I do agree that he takes it as faith. He also appreciates it when we ask for VERY BIG things. It shows him we know what he is capable of. Corporate prayer is a very powerful thing and I am so glad you have asked our community to join in it.


Wow this is incredible! Thank you so much for putting this into words!!! Clinging to Jesus!
Kathy Darrow


Psalm 46
The book of Isaiah
Isaiah 59:15-20
Let us pray!
God Bless.

Media Scholar

"This wasn't an act of God" - Senator John McCain

Jeannette Bishop

I'll be praying for That Help with you. Though, last night I found myself praying that despite my own questionable level of preparation, please bring the Second Coming and end all of this. It's hard to want to know how much lower they can and/or will go.


No one was blamed for the AIDs virus? It just appeared out of no where, probably some hunter in Africa eating the brains of Rhesus monkeys.

Ebola virus - some guys over in Africa eating cave bats, which harbor the ebola which does not bother the bats but bothers humans - no blame there, except the guys eating bats of course got blamed.

What about the --- I can't remember the name but it is a respitory virus like flu that came from China - from people eating muir cats.

So why would they not think the same thing would happen with another new virus? Some guys cleaning out a mouse infested hen house in West Virginia, or Mississippi or maybe from India were there are actually a class of people that hunts rats for the farmers and then eats them.


I don't know what's going on, but I believe you, Kent. I'm sorry that you are bearing something so heavy and must feel so alone. Last night a thought worked it's way into my brain, despite ongoing attempts to force it away over the last couple years, that something so comprehensive and bad is going and that it's covering the entire earth. And all I could wonder is how such pervasive ill doing could originate only from man. Men are being used by evil, being claimed one by one to work against the good of innocents and others around them and even themselves. I felt there was no way to deny it and it settled on me almost peacefully like a truth gently realized. And so I prayed and slept. I pray now that God brings you strength and fortitude and shines light on the path for you, clearing the way for us to follow. If you must be one of the five, I pray for your faith and bravery and soul to remain strong and true, and for your family to be held in His arms and comforted. I pray for science to be returned to the hands of God, where it can once again be used in love for the healing and betterment of His children instead of to our detriment. I pray that God will reveal to you how and when to use your knowledge in His name for the good of all. In His name I pray.


When we read the entire bible, not just one part, we see that in the last days there will be much wickedness, disease, scoffing, disbelief of the flood, people denying there is a God at all (evolution).
We don't want God in our lives or to follow His commandments and then we are angry at Him when He didn't save us from ourselves? You yell at God when its not His fault that people are wicked and greedy and hurt others.

Melissa Christopher

Can he just get on with the smiting


Beautiful. Just beautiful. My favorite has been Ephesians 6:10-.. the armor of God. When I begin to feel a little defeated..I refer to this. "The fight is against rulers, authorities and powers of this dark world." I, as are thousands of others, am standing firm and will never back down. We WILL be victorious. Thank you for this wonderful piece of writing, Kent.

The REAL Concerned Mom

27 A large number of people followed him, including women who mourned and wailed for him. 28 Jesus turned and said to them, “Daughters of Jerusalem, do not weep for me; weep for yourselves and for your children. 29 For the time will come when you will say, ‘Blessed are the childless women, the wombs that never bore and the breasts that never nursed!’ Luke 23:27-29

As the epidemic grows, these words that Jesus spoke on the way to His crucifixion haunt me. Hopefully, it has nothing to do with the epidemic and that Mr. Heckenlively will have good news to report soon about a treatment or a discovery that will lead to a treatment or even (hoping beyond hope!) a cure. Mr. Heckenlively, please, the moment you are at liberty to pass on the information, please let us know what you know. God bless you in your efforts.



I hope you'll be able to share more of what you found out soon. I think we are all on the same quest here: understand what what happened to our children.

Does this have anything to do with all this contamination of cell lines with gamma retroviruses? Have those made it into cell lines used for vaccine production at some point in time?

This is my big fear. Autism would just be the visible tip of the iceberg, of a silent plague undermining the health of the whole human population. This would be a human catastrophy going way beyond the HIV epidemic.

Anyways, looking forward to hearing more on your findings. Hopefully they won't be as grim as my own theories...

Linda Amity

Dear brother in Christ, Kent, THANK YOU! There are but a few "like" Mom's, who are also Christians, that we all check in with each other along this walk with our children, and I knew yesterday, we're all in the same place. It's a way, I believe, God connects His people. Your article today, further confirmed it. Thank you for the scripture. I recited it, and I agree with you in prayer, Father God, we know You see, and I agree, if Your Will, as Kent knows things I may not, perhaps this would be a great week for You to stop the evildoers on behalf of our precious children, You're children. Please sustain us, Please Heal our children, Please let truth triumph in the land of the living, Godspeed. In Your Son's Mighty and Precious Name, In Jesus' Name, Amen.


Thank you for this piece - its true, and something I have come to believe after years of feeling depressed, defeated, hopeless, that the truth might never prevail and many more children will suffer needlessly while drug makers and pediatricians grow richer. We must hold tightly onto faith that good will eventually triumph over evil - it always does. And we drudge on.



Why is this week so special? What should we be looking out for this week? Based on your measure, I am still in the game as well although I am getting tired of playing without a time-out.

David Taylor

Kent--I have no doubt that someone was guiding your finger on that day.

Every word of every prayer is heard. And when we pray together we are powerful.

Thank you.


The wicked are always destroyed in the Bible they only get away with their wickedness for a season. Great blog.



Kent - that gave me pause - thank you. And I will definitely refer back to that powerful Psalm as frequently as needed.

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