Every Child is Special
Psalms 139:13-17.
You created every part of me; you put me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise You because You are to be feared; all You do is strange and wonderful. I know it with all my heart. When my bones were being formed, carefully put together in my mother’s womb, when I was growing there in secret, You knew that I was there----- You saw me before I was born. The days allotted to me had all been recorded in Your book, before any of them ever began. O God, how difficult I find Your thoughts; how many of them there are!

Children are a wonderful gift from God, who sometimes packed with beautiful patterned paper, but often wrapped in opaque envelope with no color. But whatever the circumstances, a child is absent as such, she valued and its presence always brought a message or a separate learning for parents.

I have a niece her name, Felicia, will enter the age of 12 years, since childhood she had autism. She was so cute and not fussy. Her parents think Feli as "angel" small gift of God. When the age of 2 years ahead, we feel there are not normal in our niece. Feli can not focus, almost no eye contact when asked to communicate, and take a joke when there was no expression on her tiny face.
Autism is a complex developmental disorder in children, whose symptoms had occurred before the child reaches the age of three years. The cause of autism is a neurobiological disorder that affects brain function so that children are not able to interact and communicate effectively premises outside world. Symptoms of autism vary widely, some hyperactive and aggressive behavior, but some are passive. In general, people with autism tend to be difficult to control his emotions, crying, raging, laughing, angry without cause, even hurt yourself.
Many people with autism can be cured, of course, with intensive care. The first thing parents should do is: "should GFCF diet." "GFCF is Gluten Free and Casein Free". So autism was not allowed to consume foods that contain wheat, wheat, and dairy cows. Feli most needed is the support and affection from parents and family.

None of the parents who wanted their children are born with a defective condition. But whatever the reality, the child is a blessing from God to the husband and wife, who must be cared for and brought up in love. Surely there are lessons that will mature the faith and character of older people, especially those who have children with disabilities. Do not throw away a disabled child, because they are the same values and the enormity of events with normal children (Psalms 139:13-14). Trust that God also put good seed in their lives, so they can grow into children who have the privilege itself. Is there anything impossible for God and the believer?

I am not going to get into intellectual debate on why this woman did it or what caused it and that is why we should forgive her. I will just say that I appreciate your honesty about how you have dealt with things and take from this horrible episode that I am not as bad an Autism Mom as I often accuse myself of being. My son, who I adore, can drive me to complete in sanity at times, and I have acted out in ways that are more queer than abusive, and I look back and go "Am I nuts or what?". But I find myself trying to take it all in stride, and coming back after an episode to kiss that babyface and squeeze him (even at 11 years old) and tell him affectionately what a brat he is!!! The thought that someone can have even the thought of killing their child, unless they are schizophrenic or have some other brain problem, is unfathomable and inexcusable to me!

Jon, the photo is a reflection of the Texas justice system and their willingness to use the death penalty. A needle with deadly chemicals would have confused our readers since well....

Yeah, I think sticking a picture of an execution chair on your article is a piece of journalistic snake-charming magic to elicit emotional responses your mere reportage didn't merit.

good luck with your book, Kim, I can't wait to read it!

OK, I finally listened to the tape. How can she sound so cheerful and matter-of-fact? Bizarre, beyond my ability to comprehend.

What I have never, ever understood is the breathtaking amount of comments pleading with people to not "pass judgement" or "judge" this woman. My god, she murdered her innocent babies. Who can you "judge"? No one? Terrorists? Serial Killers? Jeffrey Dahmer? Who can you judge? If "judging" someone and having an opinion that she should suffer the consquences for MURDER are the same thing, gee golly, guess that makes me "judgemental." Fine by me.

Serial killers most definitely have some type of "mental illness" yet I don't see people pleading to not judge them because I wasn't molested as a child or beaten by my father or whatever it is. Lots of people have very bad things happen to them and they don't murder babies because of it.

Andrea Yates was never punished for viciously drowning her 5 children, and will live to a ripe old age on taxpayer money in some state mental ward. Or there's the other mom in Texas who said God told her to go get big rocks and beat her kids skulls in while standing in the front yard. But there I go, judging again.

How do you have a genetic predisposition to brain damage? Have a brain? The whole genetic predisposition is a pharma talking point. The weak parrot it back. Maybe the kids who got autism got a little something extra in their vaccines, no extra charge. Kinda like the kids who didn't get autism are probably at the very least infertile. Very sad.

Libby the sad part is most of the parents who frequent AoA are warrior parents. They are fighting. They are advocating.

My fear are the parents NOT reading AoA or not active in reaching them.

TACA offers free support to families who need. We have Live chat on the web, mentors, meetings across the US and a phone line www.tacanow.org.

But most of you already know that. Sadly this mom was not in the TACA database and we had no opportunity to help. The ones we help are the ones that reach out.

Willie, to clarify - I did not say that autism is genetic, but that there is a genetic predisposition, making our kids susceptible to a toxin triggering autism, while other kids who are exposed to the same toxins don't have the same severe consequences. In most families this takes the form of something like mild to moderate immune or GI histories, which vaccines trigger from a potential case of something manageable in adulthood into full blown autism in the next generation. But my point is that, if this mom carried the genetic predisposition to autism, she herself may have experienced a trigger and developed developmental or other types of more severe problems herself at some point.

For instance - in my family most people have either an immune or GI history, but no one was environmentally triggered to such a dramatic extent until my children's generation. Almost all of us have mild conditions such as allergies, mild GI disorders, mild asthma, type 2 diabetes, and other things that while they need attention, they do not prevent us from leading productive, fairly typical adult lives. I am just pointing out that it seems possible that this mom was not so lucky, and her problems, for whatever reason, triggered by a toxin or emotional or developmental, seem to have been such that she was not able to find any appropriate way to handle her situation.

That does not excuse her behavior, but I think we have to acknowledge that vaccines and other environmental triggers are going to continue to create situations where there are parents who cannot handle that level of disability, and would not have to, if it weren't for their children being exposed to these triggers.

VACCINES CAUSE AUTISM

"As much as we hate to admit it, there is a genetic disposition in environmentally-triggered autism, sometimes beyond the immune or GI genetic histories in most of our backgrounds; this mother may have had her own serious mental or emotional problems."

Amy if these children did not have Fragile X or Prader Willi Syndrome then they did not have any "genetic trigger". The "Genetic Trigger" concept is all BS, all BS and deserves nothing less than ridicule and scorn.

This woman was not able to cope with this madness imposed upon her probably had no clue about AOA and collapsed into the abyss when we foist the vaccine schedule upon her and her family. Our medical system which has been hijacked has clearly played a role and is complicit in these childrens demise.

THe people responsible for this should themselves be prosecuted and execurted for the despair that they have caused all over the world

VACCINES CAUSE AUTISM

I can't believe that anyone simply makes a rational decision to kill her own children. Clearly something is very wrong with her as well. As a college English teacher working with international students, her vocabulary doesn't sound simply ESL to me, as much as it sounds like she herself may be very developmentally or cognitively challenged. As much as we hate to admit it, there is a genetic disposition in environmentally-triggered autism, sometimes beyond the immune or GI genetic histories in most of our backgrounds; this mother may have had her own serious mental or emotional problems.

I am a foster parent and teach in the inner city. But even if you're not either of those, we all know that almost any human couple can conceive and bear children, regardless of their maturity, emotional status, coping skills, or fitness to parent a special needs child. In the past, fragile parents may not have done the best job, but they didn't have to cope with children who couldn't communicate, use the toilet, or behave as expected, so even in less than ideal situations, things often could be somewhat manageable. Now we are introducing the severe challenges of autism across the board, often to parents who may not have done particularly well even with a typical child.

The tragedy to me is that pharmaceutical companies and industry have created a planet where any susceptible child can get autism from vaccines and/or toxic environmental triggers, through no fault whatsoever of the parents or the children. If these children hadn't been given autism by whatever trigger they encountered, they would still be alive today....granted, with not the most perfect mother, but a mother who could probably cope with the normal range of behavior and challenges her children would present.

I was once a young single mother with two severely vaccine injured children, and although I never would have hurt my children, when the feces-smearing and not sleeping was at its worst, when they were just about the same ages, I clearly remember the isolation, hopelessness, and despair. It was difficult to cope even with a graduate education, support system, internet community, and the hope of biomedical resources. Although I can't imagine harming my children, I know that if I had been mentally challenged, ESL, alone, uneducated about the medical and behavioral complexities of autism, and unaware of all the resources that exist, those feelings could very well have turned to something less than ideal. I would love to see our focus be on reaching out to parents who are not in our internet-savvy, well spoken, educated, hopeful world, and making a way for them to participate to whatever extent possible in communities of hope and resource-sharing, like ours. My limited experiences with other autism families in nearby places like rural Indiana and downstate Illinois suggest that there are too many families living in some degree of the isolation, hopelessness, and lack of resources that it sounds like this family was experiencing.

First post of Kim's I can't get behind.
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Nor can I.

In fact, Kim is quietly defending the pharmaceutical companies. Who's her daddy?

Folks are being led like sheep to the slaughter with by drug giants. Based on how the flies are attracting, it's not so veiled.

http://www.ssristories.com/index.php?sort=date&p=

The "devil" is in the details.

Once, you've known an individual, a perfectly normal person, react in a suicidal or externally violent manner based solely on munching something from Merck or Glaxo you will know the truth.

What happened is tragic for all concerned. I have concluded a study of more than 500 children with autism and more than 90% were found to have diets deficient in some critical nutrients. (more than sixty) In my study there were several who changed the diet to provide for the deficient nutrients with safe, simple, and inexpensive foods readily available in any grocery store. Their symptoms went into remission in one to three weeks and have not returned in over a year.
This tragedy could have been prevented so easily. The deficient nutrients are found in the foods that contain cholesterol. Unfortunately parents have been told to avoid these foods. The truth is the brain contains three times the fat and thirteen times the cholesterol as found in the heart but medical science wants to limit cholesterol to "protect" the heart while increasing the risk of problems in the brain, liver, kidneys, and other organs.
For more information on my studies review my web site.

Re Post by patrons99: "I would be VERY interested to know, however, what her blood toxicology screen shows. If her blood tox screen is strongly positive, e.g. with atypical psychotropics, SSRI's, and the like, it is entirely feasible that she was suffering from an acute psychotic break related to a chronic neurotoxic state, wherein here cytochrome liver enzyme drug metabolizing system was simply over-whelmed."

This is happening continually with the psychiatric meds and other chemical exposures and I have lived this scenario myself. After I was poisoned by breathing in a toxic solvent gas my brain was fried and psyche meds was the only "answer" that my doctor had. Very desceptive those psyche meds---because yes sometimes they can stop hallucinations, depression, psychotic episodes, etc, which makes the patient believe that the meds are "working"...that is until they BACKFIRE which they always do eventually...and then you are in worse shape than when you started.

One thing I know from my own experience, once the brain chemistry is altered by toxins, including toxic medication, you are no longer in the drivers seat so you are at the mercy of whatever your brain is telling you... fortunately for me I was never homicidal, but the suicidal thinking was so overwhelming that it is only by the grace of God that I am still here and lived to find real answers in the world of natural medicine that God created. Psychotic breaks are real and leave the person abandoned to reality...whatever the cause including continual stress which will deplete nutrients and neurotransmitters even without the interference of other toxins. We can certainly imagine that this woman had at the very least continual stress, and it seems that since she was traveling between the U.S. and Pakistan that she received alot of vaccines and her children as well. That right there would explain ALOT. We don't know all of the contributing factors but we do know that it is not normal for mothers to murder their own children.

Mothers murdering their own children strictly as the result of being a homicidal sociopath is very rare in historical record so we need to ask ourselves WHY is this behavior increasing in our society now?

Ultimately God is in charge of this woman's judgment, but if she truly has descended into that mental place where she is not in her right mind, I just hope that she gets a lawyer who knows how to discover the truth.

This is a truly horrific and tragic case. My heart goes out to
the innocent, defenseless children. May they rest in peace.
However, I cannot help but feel compassion for the mother.

I am from Pakistan as well and can tell from the 911 tape that
this woman is probably neither well educated nor assimilated.
To address some of the questions raised in previous comments,
there is now a growing awareness in Pakistan about mental
illness but only among the educated elite. In most middle class
families, there is a great deal of stigma attached to having
psychological issues and they are commonly swept under the
rug. in cases where treatment is pursued, the patient is medicated
heavily for greater 'manageability'.

I know personally of a couple of cases where marriages were arranged between women with a history of mental illness and unsuspecting men residing in the US who did not really get to spend any time alone with their fiancees prior to marriage.

To end up in a foreign country with no support system and a
spouse that one barely knows cannot be easy. To then have
two children in close succession diagnosed with an enormously
challenging condition must be very traumatic. I don't know if
this woman had access to resources about autism or even to the
internet. I don't know whether her husband was supportive
and helpful. I don't know if she had anyone at all that she
could talk to.

I have a son on the spectrum, also called Zain, and two NT kids.
My children are the joy of my life, and yet there are days when
my incredibly wonderful husband returns from work and all I
can say is, "I desperately need to hand over because I can't cope."
Did Saiqa ever get that kind of respite?

While I have never considered killing either myself or my children,
I have on many occasions felt desperately overwhelmed.
The stresses of caring for three young children, running a household, cooking constantly for the Specific Carbohydrate Diet
and constantly worrying about my son and what treatments to pursue next to help him along towards recovery have been excruciating. And my son is on the very high functioning end of
the spectrum.

I don't believe that any of us can truly know what this mother's
experience has been. But in my mind, there is little doubt
that her actions were a result of an untreated psychological condition greatly compounded by the tremendous challenge of parenting two children with autism in the absence of a support system.

Seriously tired of hearing stories like this.... Murder is never ok, I don't care what the "circumstance".... I've worked with Children and Family Services and have seen this abuse first hand. Disgusted and the fact is that these two babies had no chance. No one was fighting for them, no one was looking out for them... Haven't heard about a father, or friends or extended family involved here...LOVED your article Kim - great job! I support you 100%.

Jen G

I would not presume to pass judgment on her. I would be VERY interested to know, however, what her blood toxicology screen shows. If her blood tox screen is strongly positive, e.g. with atypical psychotropics, SSRI's, and the like, it is entirely feasible that she was suffering from an acute psychotic break related to a chronic neurotoxic state, wherein here cytochrome liver enzyme drug metabolizing system was simply over-whelmed. If one or more psychotropic meds were in her blood, then the input from a forensic psychiatrist would be useful. Actually, Yolande Lucire's name comes to mind, and she has written on this very topic. But without the toxicology, it's all too easy to rush to judgment. If the blood tox screen is positive, then pharma would potentially be responsible, both for her autistic kids and her drug-induced delirium. If pharma does the crime, shouldn't pharma do the time. The death penalty would be too kind for them.

Murder of innocent children is never an option

If this mom had been properly supported--as no autism parents really are, since the truth about autism is buried so deep--this would not have happened. Her hell is just beginning. I wonder, too, just how autistic her children were. I don't trust what the media is doing with this, either!

It is clear from the 911 tape that the woman is not in her right mind. Also, don't forget that people from other cultures usually have no family support whatsoever. To my mind there is nothing worse than being in an ethnic minority AND having a child with autism.

I feel there should be some measure of compassion in order to understand what might have led this woman to completely lose her mind.

I totally agree with you Kim. There are too many options to count besides killing one's children. What is normal? My kids have autism and are normal to a degree. My 6 year old twins' have made their milestones and are still making their milestones just at a slower pace. My twins' have outburst just like any typical 2 year old as that is where they are functioning. They have restless/sleepless nights just like anyone else. This woman killed her kids because they were not normal? Obviously she was the one who wasn't normal. What type of message does this send out to the autism community on a whole? Killing your children is NOT an option. Feeling bad for her is NO better than feeling bad for Michelle Smith who sent her toddlers down the river because her boyfriend didn't want kids. Or feeling bad for Andrea Yates who drowned her 5 kids and blamed it on postpartum depression. Or we can compare it to Jeffrey Dahmer who had disassociative disorder. Why on earth would anyone want to feel bad for any person that would take the life of an innocent child? A child of God no less. You say, walk a mile in her shoes? I walk 10 miles in her shoes every day with 3 children on the autism spectrum. On my worse day, I would NOT kill my children. I may yell, get mad and curse however I would NEVER kill my kids. No, I do NOT feel bad for her. Autism has become prevalent and the numbers are getting higher and higher every day. If there is anyone reading this that has EVER thought about killing or seriously injuring their autistic child or children; take them to your nearest church, hospital, police department, fire department, protective services, etc. You have options and that child or children should NOT pay for your illness. An eye for an eye!

Can anyone say that parents who murder their children (autistic or not) are sane? Andrea Yates was mentioned: this is the same Andrea Yates who suffered from years of psychotic episodes, who had taken for a month prior to the murders double the maximum recommended dose of Effexor (you know the one with the warning of "homicidal ideation" on the box) whose husband who thought depressed people "just need a swift kick in the pants" was warned not to leave her alone and not to have any more children, and who by all accounts had been told by her minister over and over through the years that she was a bad mother. That Andrea Yates?

I can't think of a case of parents killing their children that I have read about in the last 10 years where depression/psychosis and some medications haven't played a role.

It is not normal what Saiqa Akhter did. It is not the act of a sane person. Mentally healthy people do not kill their children (with or without autism and no matter how bad things get), let alone call 911 with as much emotion as someone reporting a cat up in a tree. Yes she should be locked up (and I might add-sterilized) as should anyone who murders. But I don’t think these cases are so much about autism as they are about parents who are mentally sick and who are either are not acknowledged and treated OR failed by the treatment they are given (meds that induce homicidal ideation). And for that reason, no matter how despicable the crime, I cannot support the death penalty.

Darkest days are truly very, very dark. I thought I may have had a few, but gosh, I know I have never had one compared to the day these children died at the hands of their mother.

The bad days do exist but I get through them--I don't get to check out for the day or jump off a cliff. I won't harm my child or take my pain or disappointment out on him. Fortunately, the bad days aren't as frequent as the good ones and I cherish that. Bad days happen but they do go away...they do go away.

Thanks, Kim for speaking the unspeakable.

And Mark, you said, "The only path towards a more hopeful future is RECOVERY. We all know our kids were injured, exactly how is what we need to learn more about. The more parents can connect a model of the mechanism of injury to treatment modalities, the more the prognosis can improve."

That is it. The mechanism of the injury is the path out. That is my religion and my hope.

Autistic lives are cheap. A woman in Toronto was recently given 5 years for drowning her autistic child. http://xrl.in/5mke The judge did not say what the bag limit was, however.

Two beautiful lives were taken. Two very sick children have been killed by a crazed woman who was drowning in Autism. She was supposed to be her children's life jacket. I am not defending her or excusing her, or understanding her,but where was her life jacket? Where was her support? Where was the Medical establishment? Where is our Combating Autism Act?
We are surrounded by Fu*#ing awareness, Autism groups and information.Information and news stories are everywhere we turn. Millions in tax dollars are spent trying to show that Autism is genetic and expected and has always been with us,while families are drowning. And as in this case, descending into hopelessness.The millions would be better spent on the subjects they are studying. Advertising specialty companies are getting rich from puzzle pieces, magnets, T shirts,coffee mugs and jewelry that the groups who are really trying to help must sell to raise a tiny bit of money.

Will this be the incident that wakes up the Doctor's, our government,the NIH the CDC, Insel,Profit and the hundreds of other talking heads? NO! We will watch them throw millions and millions of dollars into more eye gazing studies and other nonsense research while they simply cast this horror story into the pile with all of the crazy families who just will not accept that sometimes Autism just happens.
Rest in peace Zain and Faraal. You were failed by those who were simply supposed to be able to love you.

Kim, I can't wait to read your book. I hope you sell a tri-zillion copies.
Maurine

One semantic point strikes me as important here. THERE IS NO CURE FOR AUTISM. The folks that get their panties in a wad over "curebies" are arguing with genetics research and the pharmaceutical industry, which would love to sell palliative drugs with side effects to a population of parents in despair.

The only path towards a more hopeful future is RECOVERY. We all know our kids were injured, exactly how is what we need to learn more about. The more parents can connect a model of the mechanism of injury to treatment modalities, the more the prognosis can improve.

There are two extremist traps in this argument. Kim desribes one with breathtaking clarity (Kim is my hero). The other one, the theme of the counter-revolution, says there is no dark place. Happy autism! That extreme should also he held accountable for the devastation it has caused and will cause in the future.

I think that she deserves the death penalty. I wrote up a post about this today, with what she said in the 911 tapes. It's awful that a mom could do that to her children.

Kim, I can't disagree with you about these crimes. There's just no circumstance under which it's "understandable". If there are extenuating circumstances, such as phychopharmaceutical drug use, which there may have been in this case, a reason is still not an excuse when it comes to an adult's power over a child.

It's different when a child or a disabled person acts out violently due to drugs since they were never equipped to give informed consent to begin with, either because of their age or cognitive impairment. Many are not given a choice at all. But adults have choices.

Dr. Karen McCarron attempted the "Prozac defense" when she was put on trial for murdering her autistic daughter and the strategy failed. Because she was a medical insider who had reason to understand the warnings of violence and abnormal thinking on the drug labels and chose to ignore them or play the odds, some professional drug critics-- who are all about giving warnings of the risk of violence from these meds-- still felt she was responsible even if the drugs caused her to act uncharacteristically. The reason was not the excuse.

The reason should still be noted if it comes to light though, so that the warning of drug risks can be strengthened-- particularly since pharma embedded regulatory and justice authorities will not be taking that lesson from the increase in these types of crimes. Did Akter get a scrip in Pakistan? Do psychiatric drugs carry the same or any warning labels there and was this woman of sound enough mind to have understood them if there were?

http://cbs11tv.com/local/saiqa.akhter.zain.2.1818114.html

"Haque said Saiqa Akhter showed signs of mental illness in 2007, when she visited Pakistan. Haque said she acted irrationally and was seen by a psychiatrist there, but he was unaware of the outcome of that treatment".

Something else besides age-old "organic craziness", selfishness and rejection of the disabled is going on these days. Even in Nazi Germany, the T4 "euthanasia" squad could not get German families-- even rabid party members-- to give up their disabled children for extermination. Once the rumors began that disabled children weren't being "helped" but killed in the T4 institutions, parents tried to hang on to their kids. Loyal Nazi supporters, on finding out about their disabled children's mysterious deaths in institutions, defied threats against their lives and freedom to file complaints and express outrage about the deaths. This was so true that Hitler had to officially suspend the killing program (he simply made it more covert) in 1941 or risk losing German support.

Even if individual cases of parental child murders here and there are simply old fashioned pathological parents killing a child with no help from substances (which could have been the case here, or not), statistically the number of cases of filicide mounting up has to be from environmental cause. Again, the disability of the child itself would not be reason enough to skew the modern stats dramatically.

I think the authorities know it. Quite chillingly, concrete statistics for child murders stop dead in the early nineties. There was a sudden 7.5% increase in child murders between 1986 and 1993-- when SSRI antidepressants were first marketed (the drugs with the greatest association to sudden murderous violence and suicide)-- and then there's silence and what appears to be deliberately obfuscated statistical reporting. The new higher number of child murders from 1993 is used by various government agency funded reports to crow that child murders are "down" or "stable"-- without mentioning that the "control" number being used represented a frightening increase in itself.

There have always been domestic violence murders of children when perpetrators take children's lives as a final act of power and control against their partners. Poor teen mothers have sometimes committed infanticide. There are other cultures in which killing disabled children or particularly girl children is not uncommon. But to understand the overall ramifications, the rise in married mothers of means killing children in the US-- whether disabled or not-- is suspicious.

I also agree with Mary that the spotlight for these crimes is being put on families effected by autism above all because of a serious campaign to pathologize "autism parents" to give more credence to genetic theories, sell more drugs to whole families of autistic children as well as to discredit and silence the countless parents who saw their children regress after vaccines. But I suspect that the rise in this type of crime is across the board and NT children are being put at greater risk as well.

I wonder if it could happen one day that anyone taking a prescription for SSRIs, benzos or Ritalin in the US would be forced to sign a contract saying they have understood the risks and will take legal responsibility for any criminal actions they take while on the drugs. The same contract should be cosigned by prescribing doctors and drug makers as well, and create codefendents if a formerly law abiding citizen kills their whole family while on the meds.

But that would decrease the prescription rates, I'm sure, and profits.

As much as I ABHOR what Saiqa did and I have tears in my eyes from this senseless and brutal act, I wonder if there is also a cultural element here that we are not acknowledging. Even though she lives in the United States, her name and accent tell me she is from another country. Other cultures are definitely not as accepting as we are of children or people with disabilities. In addition, I would guess that much of the care for these children fell on her, and her alone. As we, born and raised in a Western/American culture, are banging our heads against the proverbial brick wall by the lack of services/help/etc for our ASD kids, her desperation could have been even more intense because she culturally could not talk about it or handle it. Again, I am not trying to justify what happened here. I am just throwing it out there that aside from her sociopathic nature (listen to the phone call), she could have had a culture working against her. My heart continues to bleed for all of the children and parents in such pain and desperation.

Great post, Kim. Thanks for the links. Wish I could say I'd never, ever considered murder.

Best I can do now: I'm a Texas Rescue Angel, and desperate parents can reach me via http://ow.ly/2f05A

But that's too slow and too late for Saiqa Akhter and her children Zain and Faraal.

Maybe we need a national hotline for the growing ranks of hopeless, despairing parents who are told "There is no medical treatment for your child with autism." Or maybe (I'm just kidding here, don't beat me up) a drop box for children of moms like Saiqa Akhter.

This story was front page last night on Fox news website. Why?

My neighbor killed his wife, 3 children and himself in front of 6 kids they took in to provide daycare. Didn't even make the local news because nobody was autistic.

I smell an agenda. Make autism parents look crazy and that's why they have autistic children. This all feels like one big CIA human experiment.

What is for me most chilling about the 911 call is the lack of affect in the voice of the mother, Saiqa. She tries two methods to kill her children, finally succeeds, and feels no remorse, no sadness, no grief. Saiqa is matter of fact, as if she merely vacuumed a rug, or cleaned the dishes, and is reporting a normal household activity to the police. Did she think the police would be courteous to her and let her get away with killing her children without punishment, as if her acts of murder were justified? It sure sounds as if she expected police to arrive at her apartment, take away the offensive bodies of her dead children, and leave her alone so she could have more children who are "normal." There is something so off about this woman. She is a sociopath at the least, and I hope she gets her just "reward" from our criminal justice system. I guess she doesn't know about the treatment child killers receive in prison. How sad for her children. They deserved a much better mother. I wonder what the father to these children thinks.